Tuesday, July 2
Some days are just harder than others. Sometimes life gets a bit too much. And today was just like that. I was not necessarily sad but I just felt really empty. Unexplainably empty. As a result, I found myself wishing to have my boyfriend, best friend or mum around just so they could hold me tight and I could feel safe. No words would be needed. Just a hug and their heartfelt look that speaks silently “hey. I get you. It is not easy but you are gonna be ok.” (…) They are my support system and not having them around (because they live in a different country/city) makes it harder to cope with this kind of days. Nevertheless, this has also taught me how I can “pick myself up”. I called it a day, went home and allowed myself to have some peaceful downtime. As I went to bed I whispered to myself these few words in the most gentle and kind way that I know: You are safe. You are ok. You will still succeed despite these bad days. First I let it hurt and then I let it go.
So, If today is one of those days where you are feeling a little bit lost inside, do not dwell on it. Instead, show some compassionate for yourself and for how you feel and let this post be a reminder that:
It is a cold and grey Saturday in The Netherlands. I woke up this morning, stepped into my yoga mat and did a beautiful and gentle fusion of Vinyasa, Kundalini and Yin Yoga. I normally wake up, make breakfast and head to the gym to my usual cardio intercalated with strength training workout session. However, after a long and tough week at work, where stress and anxiety were a constant, I felt like it was time to slow down and reconnect with myself. Practicing yoga as the first thing in the morning really helped me to set my breath for the day as well as my mental tone.. and, let me tell you guys, breaking the routine from time to time is great and needed. I am so glad for having had this slow start to the weekend. I see Yoga as cultivating love and compassion for myself. It allows me to find peace within myself whilst washing away not only my fears but also my troubling and negative thoughts. Today’s mantra was: “I am not my feelings. I am the space behind them” and oh boy, did I need to hear this? YES. I really needed to be reminded of this as I seemed to have forgotten it for the past few weeks.
Breaking my usual Saturday morning routine made wonders to my mind and soul. After all, how can we evolve if we keep doing the same things over and over again? We need to open up our horizons in order to see the world with different eyes. And sometimes breaking our routine is all that takes to reach that.