As we jump into a new week (and soon into a new month), I would like to leave you here what I wish I was told last night when I was struggling to fall asleep.
You are a whole being. You are not someone who is broken or who needs to be fixed. You are not someone who is not good enough or unworthy. You are whole.
Where you are right now is exactly where you are supposed to be. Even if you everything . Trust the timing of your life and, most importantly, trust yourself.
Put your thinking mind at rest. (Over)thinking just creates problems that would not even exist in first place if only we were present. (Over)thinking just perpetuates resentment, guilt and pain. So, my dear one, take a deep breathe and know you are safe. Know that you are already whole. Know that you are everything you need to be.
Today was just one of the those days. I did not have a great night of sleep nor a great day in general to be honest. I went to bed late last night because I needed to finish a few things for work and then struggled to fall asleep. Even though I still managed to be productive at work, I just kept on dwelling on negative thoughts throughout the day. Nothing specifically bad happen today but I just did not felt scattered and with my mind drawn in several directions at once… and because, we feel what we think, it was pretty much impossible to feel good today, no matter how hard I tried.
I still went to my usual strength training group class at the gym and instead of having felt a boost to my energy and mood levels, I, honestly, just left it feeling more tired and upset. I guess that even the so-called feel–good chemicals usually released by working out have decided to stand me up today. Sick of feeling this way, I decided to just ease things up. On my way home, I bought myself a gorgeous bunch of colourful flowers. What I love about blooms is the fact that, regardless of how positive or negative I may be feeling, they always seem to force me to pay attention to the beauty and splendor of the world around me. Once at home, I grabbed my pen and journal and devoted some time to writing. I felt like I decluttered my mind and freed up some mental space that was very much needed. It seems the effects that journaling has on a restless mind and overall thought process never cease to amaze me. I then had my dinner whilst watching a movie and just called it a night.
..and you know what? Giving myself some grace (instead of just keep pushing myself too hard), proved to be exactly what I needed to bounce back. ♥