Sorry guys. I know it is been a while but sometimes life just happens. I have been trying my hardest to balance my professional life with my personal and social life, which has been quite challenging. Trying to balance them out has forced me to disconnect myself to a certain extent from this online social platforms. Sometimes this is what we need: disconnecting from social media in order to fully connect with life.
The past 2/3 weeks have been crazy hectic. My full-time job, usual fitness routine and some other tasks kept me very busy during the week days and then some social and travel plans kept me occupied and active during the weekends.
I had days when I felt pretty overwhelmed due to being overloaded with work and some inner thoughts but I also had other days when I felt overwhelmed with pure happiness and love instead. Love from my partner who is always so thoughtful and supportive. Love from my family who is always so caring and helpful. Love from my friends who encourage positive change and help me cope with bad times. I could not be happier with my social life at the moment since I have had the chance of being reunited with my parents, boyfriend and some of my best friends in three different countries and in a space of like 10 weeks. Although the past months have been very fulfilling, they have been also quite intense.
I think that I ended up by temporarily forget that cramming my life full of endless to-do’s and plans can be also a health hazard. There were several weeks where I got home feeling absolutely shattered and worn out every single day. There were some rough nights of sleep that – perhaps due to anxiety and stress – did not allow me to wake up feeling refreshed and well-rested. On top of it, because I had plans for every weekend, I did not really find the time to completely unplug from the day-to-day. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that I do not enjoy having plans in the weekends. I really do, especially when they imply lots of travelling, exploring new places and meeting up with people (which was the case during the past few months). my busy weekends have resulted in many new, happy and special memories that I wouldn’t change for the world. Nevertheless, I can’t deny that not having a weekend to myself for 12 weeks in a row left me mentally drained. I value alone time a lot and I need to have weekends “off” from time to time due to the breakneck pace of work all week long.
As I get to the weekend feeling often stressed out, reactive and scattered, sometimes all I want is to have some solo time to relax my mind, unwind my thoughts and recharge. Reading, writing, planning the week ahead, doing yoga and/or meditation are all things that allow me to empty my head and clear my thoughts. When I am able to do this during the weekend, I feel refreshed and can hit Monday ready to go. On other hand, when I have too many busy weeks and weekends in a row, things end up by getting purely overwhelming for me and, as a result, I find myself struggling to re-gain my control over and balance in life.
In order to have a balanced life, I need to have a handle on certain internal and external factors that I find very important. Put simple, internal factors are my mind; heart and health and external factors are my work; relationships with my boyfriend/family/friends and involvement in social events/fun activities. Even though both types of factors are interconnected, I feel like when I am too focused on the external factors, I tend to lose focus from the internal ones and vice-versa. This is exactly what I have been experiencing lately.
I had one of my best friends coming from Germany just to visit this weekend and we had such a lovely time together but now that she is left, this is actually the first Sunday afternoon that I have all by myself. I am devoting myself to writing, reading and yoga, which is exactly what I needed to feel grounded and clear-headed. Now that I have taken some time to just slow down, reassess my life and re-prioritize, I feel like I have found myself again.
Although the upcoming two weeks and six weekends are not going to be as free and probably run as smoothly as I would like, I think it is time to slow down and take back control. When the pace of my life gets too fast and things get too chaotic again, I just need to force myself to stop, breathe and refocus. I need to make time for the things that bring me inner peace, calm and groundedness. After all, as Ghandi once said “There is more to life than increasing its speed”. ♥
Can you relate to this in some way? How do you find your balance in life? Would lovely to hear about it in the comments! x